Daesha having fun with diapers

If these aren't future bribe pictures I don't know what are...

Getting bigger everyday

Sorry to all you guys who are checking my blog regularly. I have been having lots of fun with Keegan. Daesha has done a complete turn around. She is such a great helper and loves to tell people about her new brother. She has even asked total strangers if they want to hold him! Keegan is growing fast! He is also getting pretty dark. He closely matches Daeshas' skin tone. I think he will pass her up soon :-) On Monday he had his Dr appointment. He is now 6 lbs. 2 oz. (25%), 20 1/4 inches (50%). He is a really good boy. He hates his diaper changed and sprayes me almost every time. So in order to prevent this I blow in his diaper and wait till he goes. It seems to work. I bought Daesha some diapers to put on her dolls and she has loved doing that.. the other day I watched her changing a diaper on her doll and she opened it up and blew in it and closed it up again! Ha, Ha. He also wants to eat every two hours! The last couple nights were really tough. But I guess he won't grow any other way. Right? We were going to bless Keegan in July while Ted's brother and his family were visiting from Iowa. But I found out that we can't do a blessing until after the court day in 6 months! We did not know this rule with Daesha. Whoopsee. So it looks like December will be the finalization. We hope to go to the court house early in the morning and then go to the temple later that day and the following Sunday will be his blessing.

Home Sweet Home

Today is a great day! We now have Keegan at home. I got a phone call this morning at home around 10:00. I said "Hello?" And a man on the other end just blurted out "Come get your boy!" It was Keegans Dr. We laughed and he told me that Keegan is ready to go home. He has yellow eyes from Jaundice but he rechecked everything and didn't seem concerned with that. He wants me to go to our pediatrician in 1 week to see if his weight is going up. He is now at 5lbs. 6 oz. Tomorrow we go in and he will get circumcised. Eewch. We have been holding him all day long. Poor little Daesha does not want to let others see him let alone hold him. And if anyone gets a chance she is right there wanting to hold him. But as the day has gone on she has been improving. Molly was the funniest thing ever!! I got Keegan down low so that Molly could smell him. She did and sat down and just looked at me for a few seconds. It was so funny I wished I had it on video. She just stared right into my eyes I could seriously imagine her saying "You got another one?" Ok so I'm an idiot for putting thoughts on my dog but if dogs could speak I'm sure she was saying something like that.

It's day's like this that show me I am the luckiest girl in the world! I am so blessed to have such a great husband and family. It just keeps getting better and better.

Keegan - Day 6

IN OUR ARMS AT LAST....






























Ted went to the hospital today on his luch break, he took some bagels to the nurses. They said he saved them today because none of them got a lunch break. And Ted got to be the first to hold Keegan. Humm, Ted was this a bribe??? :-)

Me and my sister got to the hospital around 5 o'clock were we went to a triage room and held Keegan. I also got to feed him and burp him, it was great. He doesn't feel any smaller than Daesha when she was born (6lbs. 1oz.) I had Keegan asleep by the time Ted came with Grandpa Kent and Grandma Betty. But he opened his eyes a couple times to peek and Grandpa. Then Grandma unwrapped him to check everything out and he didn't like that much. He never cried just squirmed and whinned. The flash on Betty's camera must had made Keegan mad because right around the 4th picture he put his hand right over his eyes. It was really funny. It was almost like he knew that the flash was coming.

So everything is going good, the Dr just wants him to gain alittle weight before we bring him home. Still praying for Friday.... but the nurses say it might not be till Sunday.

Better get more bagels!!!

Keegan -Day 5

Today Keegan is off the oxygen!!!!! He is also drinking from a bottle. The nurses are still totally surprized at how well he is doing. They also said he is a very good boy and only crys when he is hungry and he wants his food NOW! The Dr said we can bring him home on Friday. Tomorrow will be a fun day it's grandparents day. (and sister day) We have gotten the ok to have Kent and Betty and Val come see Keegan. Still haven't held him. Hopefully tomorrow will be the day.

Keegan Day 4

Poor little Daesha has been really clingy to me. I took her to my friends Kim and George's house. She did not want to go. She wanted to go with me to the hospital. But when I picked her up they said that she did just fine and had lots of fun playing with their neighbor. She's fine when she's not around me. But as soon as she is with me she is whinny and wants me with her. I think this confirms that kids know our feelings and have a special sense of our stresses.
Keegan is doing really good too. He has a feeding tube in his nose now and has been keeping his food down. He's showing some signs of Jaundice but nothing to worry about. The Dr called Ted on his cell phone and said that we may be able to bring him home Friday. But he's not making any promises.
Thank You so much for everyones prayers. The nurses have been very impressed with his quick recovery. We love you all for your support and help.

Day 3 (cont.)

I also forgot to mention Keegans birth weight and such..
Born at 7:43 a.m. 5 lbs. 11 oz. 17 1/2 inches.

Keegan - Day 3

OPS! My bad. In my last post I said Keegan was born on Thursday. It was actually Friday...see how tired I was.
We took Daesha to see Keegan today. She couldn't go in but she could look through the window. Ted was holding her and I went in to see him first. I was so excited to see his eyes open and very alert. The nurse said that he has been doing excellent today and moving around and getting some energy! yeah!! His numbers are still the same but his breathing has slowed down alittle too. He is looking so much better! I was so busy talking to the nurses I forgot about my dear husband and daughter outside. I turned to look at them and Daesha was screaming. She wanted to come in to see Keegan.
Still thinking he will need to be in the hospital until next weekend. But he definately wont be going to the ICU.

Keegan Davis is here and OURS!!!

Thursday morning 7:00 a.m. Ted and I arrived at Pioneer Valley hospital. We went into Jasmines room where she was "sleeping" I think she was pretending so she wouldn't need to talk to us. The nurse gave me the lovely blue slippers, blue hair net and what seemed like white tissue paper overalls to change into. Ted took a funny picture of me all dressed up. (that picture won't be on my blog.) Ha, ha.
After Jasmine was preped I was taken in. The c-section was pretty cool. I held Jasmines hand and said a couple words of encouragement but I felt like a total ass. sorry, thats the truth. Once Keegan was out the nurse said I could go over and see him. But that didn't last long. They quickly noticed he was not breathing well. She said we will need to take him right now and you can't come. Ted didn't even get to see him.
The rest of the day was just weird. Jasmine never really talked with us. She's just really quiet. I tried talking about things we enjoyed and talked about Daesha. Anything to get her to open up. She never really did. The only things I learned about her where things she said to me when Ted was out of the room. Ted hardly said 5 words in the two days we were with her.
I remember Ted saying that his brain was exhausted when we adopted Daesha. I never felt that way. But boy do I feel that way this time! We both are so mentally drained by the end of the day it is really hard to explain. Just trying to get close to some one or just trying to show her that we truely care about her well being and in return she wasn't willing to share. It was completly impossible and frustrating.
The next day wasn't better. Our caseworker called and said Jasmine wanted to talk to us. She asked if we wanted her there with us. I said no I think we will be ok. We got there around 10:15. We were to sign the papers at 12:30. She had taken a pain med. which pushes the signing time to 2:30.(she can't be on any pain meds when she signs) She proceeded to tell us about her bills not being paid and was trying to find were she was going to find the money. I knew exactly were this was going and I quickly changed the subject and started to tell her how Keegan was doing today. She never brought it up again. We could get in a serious legal problem if we EVER gave her money because it could look like a bribe.
A few minutes later Keegans Dr. came in to update Jasmine on Keegan. After the Dr left she began to cry. Talk about feeling uncomfortable! I gave her a tissue and tried to reasure her he was going to be ok and ..WHAT DO YOU DO???? Ted and I looked at each other like total idiots. We were about to leave the room and she asked us to take her to see Keegan. This is the first that she has wanted to see him. She said that she did not want to hold him. Which I thought was sad. So we took her to the nursury. I said we will leave you here and go back to your room. By the time Ted and I made it back to her room and sat down she was back. The feeling was not good. Ted and I left and really felt like this might be making a turn for the worse. I called our caseworker and told her about our morning. she was not happy about her asking for money and reassured us that we had done everything right. We went back to the hospital at 2:00. We waited in the waiting room for 3 hours while she signed. We had no idea what was going on. we both thought that she was changing her mind. Once the caseworkers came out they told us she was upset with the Dr for taking the baby early and she felt like she was giving us something bad that she could have prevented. The case workers did their job and eased her worries. we quickly signed and then I asked if she wanted to see us again or not. I really didn't want to see her again, but I felt if she needed that then ok. Then she surprised us all and walked into the waiting room! We went for a walk outside for 2 1/2 hours. I couldn't even tell you what we talked about. Nothing really. We told her that we were truely grateful for what she had been through and that we were honored to take care of Keegan. We hugged and that was it. I was so glad to get that over with. I know I sound heartless and maybe I am but it was so hard to feel at ease around her I just wanted to go home.
So the next chapter continues... Keegan will be in the oxygen box for another 3 days. If he doesn't improve he will be transfered to Primary Childrens ICU. We haven't even been able to hold him. It's killng me!! Once he is off the oxygen and his lungs are fully developed they can begin feeding him with a bottle. Then hopefully we can bring him home. Still not sure when that will be. Ok so thats whats going on and hopefully this sunday we can relax and recoup from the longest weekend we have ever had.

Our first meeting...

CRAP THESE PICTURES SUCK!!!! They are totally out of focus. It's not like these are just everyday pictures. I want to cry.

Any way we met our birthmom tonight. Her name is Jasmine and her daughters name is Tayja. (really close to Daesha) She was born in Florida but grew up in Jackson, Mississippi. Jasmine picked Red Lobster for dinner. Which is one of our favorite places to eat. Daesha and I went to Build A Bear earlier today and got a pink bear for Tayja. Daesha helped make it and put a star with a wish in it. I asked her what she wished for and she said I wished for a baby.

What a smart girl!

I also got some chocolate covered strawberries and raspberries for Jasmine.

Dinner was great but how do I put this in words.... um, Jasmine was very distant. I couldn't tell if thats her personality of if she totally hated us. It was so weird. I was really grateful to have the two kids there. They did most of the entertaining. She never asked us any questions. Only one. "Have you thought of any names?" We told her we liked Keegan and she agreed it was a cute name. I told her that we didn't know what to do for the middle name, and that we might need her help with that. She quickly said, "oh I don't care it's up to you guys".

Man this is such a stressful time. I try not to think that she might change her mind but the possibility is there until we sign. A good thing that she said to us as we were leaving was, "I will see you bright and early Friday morning". So anyway it was not by any means what I was hoping to learn. And we just are praying like mad that she is just scared and doesn't want to attach herself to us because that would only make things harder.

AWESOME NEWS!

We have some very exciting news that I believe we can officially share without having any setbacks...
We will have a baby BOY in Friday the 8th!! We are so excited and finally feel like this is the real deal. We have been "matched" with our birthmom for about a week but there was a slight holdup on the race of the baby. She is African American and I guess they weren't sure about the birth father??? They thought it might have been Native American so some extra checks had to be done before we could move forward (Native Americans are not legally available for adoption). Once that was ruled out we set up a time to meet our birthmom and her daughter who turns 2 this month. We are meeting this Wednesday the 6th. After we meet her and hopefully take some pictures I will tell you all more about her. YEEEESSS!!!!!